OUT

I guess I've always known I was gay. I realize that it is something I always knew, sort of a silent understanding with myself, but life went on, and growing up I never made it a big issue. I felt different from a very early age...I didn't have feeling for girls other than close friends, but whenever I saw a cute guy, I would feel extremely attracted to them. I had always known that I liked men. I knew I liked their bodies. When I was 19, I saw Dima(Russian boy) for the first time, I saw him from across the room and I knew I like him a lot. I looked at his dark hair, green eyes wonderful 19 year old body (he was in my English class) and I knew. I felt like I could see through to his soul, that we could really feel each other. But at the end, we never talked about how I felt toward him. He was totally straight boy. I graduated and never saw him again...

I came out to my sisters about a week ago.They are all very supportive. My dad is sad because he thinks me being with a girl would be more beneficial, I haven't exactly said, but he knows. My mom passed away but i think she would be sad too because I don't think she wants people to know she has a gay son. They still love me, I am the same guy they raised, and I try to make them proud in other ways. I think that sometimes the hardest thing is to accept yourself, but once you do, it will make you happier. I remind myself everyday that it is not wrong to love another human being. God put us on this earth to love, we should be proud we can love just as strong as anyone else, if not stronger. Coming out to friends and family is a huge step. I feel it is good to make sure the timing is right. Even waiting til your out of the house and on your own, unless you feel it would be better for you to do it sooner. I just know that with me, coming out at the age that I did is lots better than in the last 10 years for many reasons.

Coming out is not an easy thing to do, but, it's way better than stay in the closet for the rest of yours life.... Keep your chin up! Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it.

xoxo

LETTING GO

Letting go is one of the hardest lessons in life...

BUT...

In life, there's many things that we have to learn to let go. We have to let go of situations, things, memories, people and even ourselves. However, there are times where you or that person has changed to the extent that it's necessary to let go of the relationship or friendship, so that each of you can fulfill your life path; and it might just reveal what you are truly capable of becoming. Nevertheless, I think Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be. Some people may think it's holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it's letting go. :)

*I personally agree that there are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life.

*I also strongly think that when I'm letting go of the person whom i love very much, I never leave him /her behind, I take a part of them with me and leave a part of myself behind.

***Here are some inspiration from these letting go quotes!***

-Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure.-- Oprah Winfrey

-The harder you fight to hold on to specific assumptions, the more likely there's gold in letting go of them.-- John Seely Brown

-When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.--
Lao Tzu

The WATER WORLD

What is A Mermaid?

I think every little girl's dream is to be a mermaid or to see a mermaid. [When I was younger] I would go to the beach and cover myself in the sand. People from different cultures and centuries have the same idea of what mermaids are ... so that's maybe a cool thing to think about.

*Is it REAL?

A mermaid is a legendary aquatic creature with the head and torso of human female and the tail of a fish. The male version of a mermaid is called a merman; the gender-neutral plural is merfolk. Various cultures throughout the world have similar figures. Much like Sirens, mermaids in stories would sometimes sing to sailors and enchant them, distracting them from their work and causing them to walk off the deck or cause shipwrecks. Other stories would have them squeeze the life out of drowning men while trying to rescue them. They are also said to take them down to their underwater kingdoms. In Hans Christian Andersen’s The Little Mermaid it is said that they forget that humans cannot breathe underwater, while others say they drown men out of spite.